The Woman in Me

Last week I watched as a couple of Facebook friends launched The Women of Power website ( Browsing through the store I came across a book written by Marjean Holden, one of the founders, called The Power of The Goddess so I went on to Amazon, and, mainly because I like to support people I know, I bought a Kindle copy.

I read it in one sitting and I don’t think I’m exaggerating when I say I believe, that my life as I currently know it is about to change.

I am a woman, I’m very clearly a woman. I have big boobs and in the last 10 years have developed a big butt.  When an occasion calls for dressing up I’m more likely to wear a dress than trousers and my voice is on the high end of the vocal spectrum.  So I know I’m a woman but I’ve never thought of myself as feminine - or should I say I never really thought about my femininity and what that might mean to and for me.  

In the days since I read this book, I’ve reflected more and more on it and found that as much as I didn’t think about my feminine energy, I gave even less thought to the masculine in me, and even less thought to the fact that it is in that realm, the masculine, that I reside most of the time. For me, it’s because I feel I have to be constantly doing or thinking about doing and not always in the most productive of ways. I realised that, like Marjean says, it’s tiring and not where I want to be most of the time. Don’t get me wrong, there’s nothing wrong with the masculine energy within me, it only becomes a problem when it’s out of balance and predominates. In order for me to maintain a balance I need to be more aware of it and how it manifests for me. And now I’m more aware I realise that in recent months and years my feminine energy has been crying out for me to notice.  And I heard the cry, I just didn’t realise that the sound had anything to do with me.

This has come at an interesting time of my life; a time where I am no longer peri menopausal but have gone into full menopause.  I remember when I first started my period, quite late, in Nigeria.  As my grandmother happily told me I had become a woman, I struggled to understand what that meant and now that ‘period’ of my life is over and I find myself again trying to understand what it is to be a woman and what it is to be feminine and powerful, especially as I don’t have children of my own.

But this is par for the course at this time of life.  Many people in middle age no longer have the same pressures they had when they were younger; children are grown up, mortgages paid off which means the roles we played in our lives can change and the energy we used to achieve our goals can change so that we are more of our true selves.

Marjean also strongly makes the point that the need to have balanced male and female power applies to both men AND women. - It’s equally important that men embrace their masculine AND feminine power in order to be truly powerful.

Reading the book served as the switch to get me on to the right radio station (so to speak) and I’m excited by the opportunity this has raised to explore a more rounded version of myself and I’m excited to see how this will manifest in my life.

Power of the Goddess is written in an easy conversational style that quickly engages you in a way that doesn’t make you feel like you have to run with wolves. Instead Marjean talks to you like you’re a couple of friends having a chat and uses her own personal experiences in a way that you the reader can connect both with her and yourself.

The key message I got from this book is the importance of getting in touch with and owning your inner power be it masculine or feminine, be you male or female.  As I said it speaks to men and women alike - if you allow yourself to hear it.

Women of Power can be found at

The Power of the Goddess; A Woman's journey to Awakening, Cultivating and Sustaining Her Power can be found at ;

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